While doing Bible study tonight, I stumbled across the passage where God sends His angels to talk to Abram and confirm his promise/covenant with him. Sarah overhears the conversation and laughs, saying "there's no way this is gonna work" [Gina paraphrase]. The angels (in the other room) call her out on it and she lies and says she didn't laugh. The angels tell her nothing is impossible with God.
I have been feeling very discouraged about my life lately. Sometimes, it seems like God has simply forgotten about the bigger plan of my life. He's got the little details worked, but not the bigger plan. The biggest way I've seen this lack of faith worked out in my life has been my attitude towards my future (job, spouse, kids, etc.). I've been acting really hopeless - almost as though I don't believe in any of the things that God has called me to believe in anymore.
I'm not sure when it happened. Perhaps it was when I started looking at my next birthday. Sometimes, I feel like my adult life is never going to start and I will never move beyond this place. Sometimes, I get very afraid of what God might have for me in the future. Either way, it's all translating into a lack of faith on my part, and I need to work on this. God's got the bigger picture too...I need to trust Him!! I do not want to be Sarah in the other room - laughing because I don't believe my God is big enough!!
Thursday, April 30, 2009
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