Lift it up...do not be afraid!

In my temptation to walk away*And through the endless troubled days*There's a hundred million ways*For me to release Your praise*And by and by, through the tears*And things You've taught me through the years*My whole life was designed by You*I'll never know anyone half as true*Lift it up, I lift it up*Lift it up so You can see*Lift it up, I lift it up*Lift it up from inside of me*Lift it up, I lift it up*Lift it up so You can see*Lift it up, I lift it up*So I lift it*I lift it up to You*And I'll never forget the times that we've been through*So I lift it*I said I lift it up to You*And I surrender all of me*To You, to You, to You*Everything I'll ever be*To You, to You, to You*I surrender all of me. - Lift it Up by Thousand Foot Krutch

"You who bring good tidings to Zion, go up on a high mountain. You who bring good things to Jerusalem, lift up your voice with a shout, lift it up, do not be afraid; say to the towns of Judah, 'Here is your God!'" - Isaiah 40:9

I'm so afraid. Always concerned about really lifting what I have inside of me to God. I think I'm scared that 1) Others will look at me, askance, and ask "what on earth are you shouting about on that mountain, girl?" or 2) I will start shouting and God won't come to the party...

Was reading about Elijah this week in Bible reading. If I was on Mount Carmel, I don't know that I would have set that whole elaborate show up for God. I would have been afraid that if I did, and He didn't show up, I would have messed everyone up. What's that about??? Why do I always feel the need to defend a God Who's thoughts are so much higher than mine? Why do I constantly fear that truly connecting with Him will reveal a God Who is not big enough to handle my problems?

"Who has measured the waters in the hollow of His hand, or with the breath of His hand marked off the heavens? Who has held the dust of the earth in a basket, or weighed the mountains on the scales and the hills in a balance? Who has understood the mind of the Lord or instructed Him as His counselor? Whom did the Lord consult to enlighten Him, and who taught Him the right way? Who was it that taught him knowledge or showed Him the path of understanding?" -Isaiah 40:12-14

I think God can handle it. Now, I just need to believe it!